Big old dark home by Newb

Hello,

This is my first post here. I've realized I need to get some input on the dreams I have. My dreams have emotionally affected me my whole life. They intrigue me and I feel there is some great meaning behind them. I am medical marijuana patient and use to think that I didn't dream (when medicating) because of cannabis but I come to realize I just don't remember them. When I don't use cannabis, my dreams are vivid. Lately though I've been vaguely remembering and trying to be more concious of dreams. I want to be part of dream disscussions and get feedback on my dreams so I may have more understanding of what my subconcious mind has to say.

So that being said, here is the dream that provoked me to find this place of disscussion. I'm sure there was more to it but this basically what I remember. I have found a new home to live in, renting, not a feeling of ownership. Its a huge old home with many floors, hallways, stairs, rooms and windows. Although one floor, maybe the top floor, is where I am going to live. This house is very old, dusty, and aged/run down. It has a dark feeling of being hunted but no spirits or ghost. My cousin appears later as if I we are discussing being roommates. (actually have discussed this) I remember showing him the kitchen/stove/oven, it was very old, like an antique. Both of us actually enjoy cooking.

This house I have never been to but I have been there before in my dreams. The house may be slightly different but it is not the first time I have dreamed about old huge homes with dark vibes. Talking about the dream doesnt have nearly the emotional quality then the actual dream made me feel. It's wierd how a describing a simple dream isn't that spectacular but still the dream leaves you with emotions you can't shake. Maybe its how surreal it is or vivid. On a final note, 9 out 10 dreams of mine take place in a completly different world then what I've experienced in the waking world. Its always a feeling of post apoloypse, either being a dark cruel city or a ghostly empty natural setting. Although borderline nightmare it never seems like one just a dark dream. Really would apprciate anythoughts.

Welcome Zombiegarden

Since you are a medical marijuana patient, can you tell us what disease you are using the marijuana for (or at least give us some idea). I don't mean to sound nosy, however, as far as I know, medical marijuana is usually only prescribed for serious illnesses, and that would definitely affect your outlook on life and your dreams.

In a dream, a house often represents yourself. Can an old house that you feel that you don't own have something to do with whatever illness you have - perhaps that your body is in disrepair and you don't have control over it (renting, not owning).

If you are religious, the idea of renting your house/self can have a religious element to it. You're just "renting" your body until it's time for it to move on into the next life.

(Do you think your choosing the screen name ZombieGarden could be related to any of this?)

A kitchen is a symbol of nurturing and being taken care of/taken care of others.

It might help you to look through the section on houses in dreams.

It's pretty common to have dreams that take place in a completely different world than the real world. It just shows how creative our minds can be.

This tracks with some dreams I remember from before I started keeping logs, and the few months after I started.

In one, I had a very nice room in a very shabby house, with a bleak view of dull skies and a past-its-prime neighborhood out the window. It finally occured to me, months later, that as Marcia said this was "where I lived", both physically and with my dreaming mind, and that the biggest reason all was so bleak was because I wasn't getting out of that snug, cozy room, looking around, and perhaps working to improve things.

In another, I walked desolate streets among collapsed and destroyed buildings, lived in what amounted to a homeless shelter, with a rat my best friend. A suitable enough landscape for the sort of mess we make of our lives by midlife.

Suffice to say, things got better. At times they got very good indeed. In one, I found I was living in a "White House", and to this day I find that the inner "Congress" is a lot more effective, though sometimes just as discordant, as the one on the Hill.

I like to call dreams like yours the "Invitation to the Dance." You are, to my mind, being invited to explore not just a neglected house, but a neglected world.

Welcome to the forum ZG!

I have dreams all the time about being in strange place like old houses. Many times the house is not complete with plumbing missing or floors, stairs, and walls in need of repair. I have physical conditions in which this can be a metaphor for. I have acid reflux, which is like bad "plumbing." I have arthritis and in need of a hip replacement, which is like the sagging foundations that are not too stable.

Thanks for the replies!

I use medical marijuana for chronic pain due to sport injuries. Which left me out of shape and not like I use to be. I also suffer from acid reflux. I can't afford going to the doctor with no health insurance so there are some medical issues being neglected.

Even though I was raised a Christian, I am not relgious but do consider myself spiritual. The ZombieGarden screen name came from my music project. I do like zombie movies and nature but I like to think it also means that I bring my favorite dead muscians back with a new sound.

I come to the conclusion that I am need of change physically/health and location wise. The dream seems/feels so much more meaningful though.

That's because it's doing what dreams do so well: portraying those conclusions metaphorically and thus dramatizing them.

Two questions would be in the forefront of my mind if this were my dream. Or, more accurately, two things I'd try to expand on.

#1: What's your opinion of that stove? Are you and your dream cousin looking forward to using it. trying recipes on it? Or would you just as soon it disappeared and was replaced by something hi-tech and 21st Century? (Keep in mind this is dreamland. money's no object.)

#2. What's the nature of your relationship with your cousin? Best friend? Mentor/mentee? Just a relative? Alter-ego? (In my case, my dream alter-ego was my youthful best friend Paul, who tended to represent what Jung would call my "Shadow."
In waking life Paul tended to be more physically fit, more impulsive, more spontaneous. I was for many years not particularly fit, deliberative. We shared a desire to become cops and a certain ironic sense of humor.)

Finally, given your straitened circumstances, what can you do to start you towards your goals.

As I see it, that house and those dreary surroundings represent both your outer and inner worlds. Don't worry, they're changable. Are follow-up dreams suggesting anything?