Bizarre, disturbing, and confusing dream that's still bothering me. PLEASE HELP! Disclaimer: this was one of the most bizarre and disturbing dreams I've had, and I'm going to go into detail to make a full, clear summary. Here's what happened: I was going to this party where everyone is supposed to dress as the opposite gender, like as a joke. I'm a 19 year old straight guy, very comfortable with my gender, and I've never even considered doing it before. But in the dream, I had no problem with it whatsoever. Not only did I go all-out with a skimpy, revealing outfit, but I used a wig and makeup specifically to make myself look almost exactly like one of my female friends. AND, as I dressed myself, my body actually transformed into a female body. I admired my new "parts" in the mirror for what seemed like hours. I was very attracted to myself and even masturbated to my own reflection. Then, when I arrived at the party, no one else had actually done the dress up part and everyone was laughing at me. But in my mind I was still myself and still a straight guy. In embarrassment, I started drinking (which I never do in real life). Then, I started hitting on another female friend of mine who was at the party (which I also wouldn't do) and sexual tension started forming between us after we saw a movie about lesbian lovers together. But then, it took an even weirder turn when she and I were walking through a mall and we ran into the Mortal Kombat character Shang T'Sung (random, I know). I challenged him to a fight and I turned back into guy form. Then we fought for a while and I defeated him and my female friend was very impressed. And then it ended. When I woke up I was admittedly very confused because I felt like I had lost a lot of my masculinity (it's back now though). Also, the sexualization of my female friends was disturbing, since I respect them a lot. All of that's been bothering me since I had the dream 4 days ago. Anybody have any opinions about this dream? It seems very symbolic. And sorry for all the gross details. I didn't want to miss any important points that might mean something.
Well, on the surface, it seems that the dream could be about questioning your sexuality. I don't mean questioning that you are straight; I mean thinking about the roles that society tells you to play as a man. But I think this could just be about the roles that you play in life in general and thinking about what you want to do and society's expectations of you and worrying about not being able to figure out what other people want of you and how you can reconcile it with what you want for yourself. The sexualization of your female friend could also relate to this, because in the dream her role changes (from friend to sex object). The sexual symbolism used in the dream (including the masturbation) probably came from the fact that you were horny anyway.